What do I mean? Well...
For those of you who are aware, I have been doing Weight Watchers for some time. You know, watching what you eat, tracking it, pointing it, weekly weigh ins on the scales. That sort of mumbo jumbo nonsense. I have done quite well on it. However I do have my downfalls, more so than my up-falls (is that a word?). Especially recently. Especially on the scales. The numbers tend to go up more than they go down. But obviously are going down at times. There is also something us WW'ers like to call NSV's. These are non scale victories. Times where the scales may say one thing that isn't so great, but rather than having a negative approach to it you look at the positives. You may not have lost the weight, or spent 2 weeks working out with no weight loss at the end of it, so you question whether it's worth it. It will be. You may not have the lb loss but the inches have gone. Or those jeans you couldn't get past your thighs, now go all the way etc. The victories that can't be jotted down by a number per say. A NSV as you will. I personally need the numbers on the scales to go down to appreciate my achievements however I tend to forget about the NSV side.
So I'm hoping that you assume I am going down a positive blog route.. I'll get there. Got to throw in the ol' negatives first.
Everyone goes to me, once you order your wedding dress, you will have extra motivation and determination to lose that remaining 1.5stone. Did I? Like heck did I! I ordered that dress in August 2012, praying I would get to my overall WW goal by December 2012. Ready to start 2013 with a bang. Did that happen? No. Why? No idea.
If any of you have seen my old WW blog, then you will be aware of how I came about starting my weight loss journey. I had a major issue within a changing room in a department store. Since that day, changing rooms and me do not mix, we are not friends, not even acquaintances. Not in the slightest. We meet very rarely, and on the odd occasion that we do, it's a very swift & quick reunion. In, look, out. Done.
Until Saturday.
I was in a shopping centre with my partner, and there were a few items I wanted to try on from River Island. Can I find them on the website? No I cannot! So you will have to excuse the dodgy model - moi!
River Island is the type of place I would wander round and that was it. Nothing looked right. Nothing fit. Saturday, I gave it a shot.
Some clothes you may judge me on but I do not care.
Like this jumper for instance.
I want it. I need it. I don't know when I will wear it, if I would ever wear it outside but I must have it in my wardrobe!
I am tempted to ask my Mom to buy it for me (yes I am 24 years old but wait...) then she can use it to coax me into staying determined and motivated to get to my goal. Which is now, around 7lb away. A lot more than I wanted to bring 2013 in with but hey ho, what can you do.
Even more so, this is a baggy jumper yes. But this is a size 8 baggy jumper. An 8. Me?! 8?! No way. May not be the most 'flattering' jumper in the world. But who cares. Its Disney!
There was a dress I wanted to try on (this is on the website so no me thankfully) and usually I have found with the odd RI dress that I have managed to squeeze myself into, they have been way to short for me so have gone back on the rail.
This however was a decent length. It fit. It was slightly TOO BIG!! But the fact is, a size 10 RI dress fit me!! I wasn't so sure. It looked lovely up top, but think the black band still focused to much on the bits I am not so keen on. With a £60 price tag as well, a umm/ahh decision did not constitute a good enough reason to purchase it. So that actually ended up back on the rail.
Now you are probably wondering why I am sharing all this, as so far there is no point to this blog (is there to any of them!?)
Well...bit of a back story: whilst we were wandering around the shopping centre my best mate was asking if I wanted to go out with her and some of her work mates that night. I don't go out often & cannot remember the last time I actually did. I was having a bit of a bad day 'mirror wise' shall we say so wasn't up for dressing up too much. My partner and friend both twisted my arm enough so eventually decided to go out with her, but then was questioning what to wear.
Back to RI: So I'd seen this chiffon style, frilly top thing a while back in both black and cream. I am too pale for cream so that was a no no. This black top is the type of top I would love to be able to wear but always avoid due to thinking it isn't me and there is no way I'd fit into it, or if by some miracle I did, it wouldn't look right or sit right over my child bearing hips.
But my partner made me try it on. Size 10. Are you kidding me?
Now I am not a big headed kind of girl. But I got to say. Wow. Is this me? Really?
Surely not. No no. Loving the polka dot socks btw!
Well, I went back out and showed my other half. He couldn't believe what he was looking at. I don't wear clothes like this. Nor do I take photo's of myself. He treated me to it. Bless him. He wanted me to have it, and wanted me to wear it out that night.
He couldn't believe the happiness and turn around in my attitude that day! I was so happy and on cloud 9... it is a wonder what mirrors and one item of clothing can do. I am not saying that changing rooms and me are best pals or anything, but lets just say that 'acquaintances' may be back on the scene!
So I wore it out. (Un)fortunately it meant I was to be going out in all black so went for a block infusion of brightness for the tootsies. See....!!! (excuse the electric box, we were waiting for our ride..!)
Also, I do not do heels. I do not wear them. When I do they tend to want to come off within an hour. I was in these for 8 hours. Didn't ache till I got home at 3am. Bonus. 2 NSV's in one day (or 24 hours as hit Sunday before my 'night' finished!).
Sometimes NSV's really are the best. I may have lost 70lbs and be healthier physically and BMI wise bla bla bla. But nothing will beat that feeling I experienced Saturday afternoon & evening & looking at those photographs on Sunday. Nothing beats being healthy mentally or emotionally.
That will spur me on for that last half a stone. That will get me to my goal.
"Instead of giving myself reasons why I can't, I give myself reasons why I can."